Purging

Today was the only day I had not scheduled anything specific. We planned to take Cassie to the movies during the day, and then tonight go to Morgan Hill to check in a soccer team for a tournament this weekend.

Since I have done virtually nothing all week in terms of housework or putting away laundry, in the morning, I decided to tackle all the clean laundry piled up in the bedroom. While working on that, I also started tackling all the clothes in my closet, and it turned into a 2 hour clothes purge. I tried on every pair of pants I came across, made Franklin be my fashion consultant, and got rid of an entire shopping bag full of pants and another of tops. I can count on him to REALLY tell me if my butt looks too big, or which pants showed unsightly rolls, and which ones made my butt look good (and finally, I saw some that really did make my butt look good, because my butt is looking better with all those damn squats and lunges I've been doing!!) I went through drawers, and finally got rid of some comfort clothes in sizes way too big that I had held onto. I realized that the longer I held on to these big clothes, the more I didn't give validation to my permanent weight loss. If I didn't get rid of these clothes, I didn't open the door for more to come to me in my correct size. I stopped saying "What if?" or "I really liked this and looked good in it before" because that person is not me anymore.

Then after we left to go to the movies, my friend Jennifer went through her clothes and left me a bag of size 14 pants. SCORE! I got 4 pairs that look really good on me. I then took out some size 16's that I have been wearing with a belt to hold them up and put them in the donation bag. My other friend Laurie had given me a bunch of her pants. Went through those and kept the best ones. All in all, I now have 7 or 8 pairs of pants that fit me well. Phew. I don't have to spend any money now, except maybe on a couple of tops. I am so excited! Starting at a size 20-22, and an 18 since January, this comfortable size 14 feels REALLY GOOD.

I am happy. More later.