I know my choreography. I mean, really, I have been teaching so much lately that I should have this down perfectly. Just in the month of February I am teaching 13 classes. In a 28 day month. And I have been called twice to sub outside of this that I have turned down. Wow. Never in my wildest dreams, when I began this journey, did I think I would be teaching this often. I am not complaining. I have had more opportunities than other new instructors to practice in preparation for filming the assessment video since I have two classes a week that are mine. I am very fortunate. I am also very fortunate to have the feedback from long time participants on how each class is progressing, to have new participants who are excited and keep coming back to class, to have a friend and mentor like Alex who willingly gives up his time to tape me numerous times and give me feedback and suggestions to make me a better instructor, to have other instructor friends like Kimi, Amy, Jozi, Christelle, Donna and Pam for emotional support......not to mention my family for their patience with my mood swings, time away from them to teach and practice......geez I sound like I'm giving an acceptance speech or something!
Tomorrow will be my 17th class. Feels like more. I've been teaching for 5 weeks. Today was the fourth class I've taught this week. I will not lie. It was tough. I am very sore, and I went down on my weights today knowing that I have to increase tomorrow and be on my game. I guess there is such a thing as too much BodyPump! What I need to work on is balance - with my fitness program, with accepting sub jobs, with my work and home life. Why is it that balance is such a hard thing to achieve? I know that part of it is that I love what I am doing so much. That makes it harder to say no to it. There is also the pressure to tape the video, so the more practice I get the better. In hindsight, I should have gone a bit lighter on the teaching this week so I could be fresher tomorrow, but I know that the adrenaline will kick in as I am teaching and I'll be fine. After I submit this video, I am going to plan in my cardio workouts - Stephanie and I want to start running again and if I can do that in between my teaching BP, then I can be a bit more well rounded.
I will be 43 next week. Exactly 3 years ago, on my 40th birthday, pictures were taken of me that ended up being the perfect "before" pictures. If I could have foreseen, on that day, what my life would look like today.....I wouldn't have believed it. Never in a million years. Sure, I dreamed about being thinner, being fit. But......where I am now? Wasn't even on the horizon of my thoughts.
This just goes to show....your mind is a powerful thing. "Life can be magic if you choose to see it."(taken off Alex's FB post tonight). Wallowing in negativity gets you......more negativity and a life that is not happy. Change your thinking.....hope for the best......see yourself doing the impossible, living a dream........DREAM BIG........don't be afraid of shooting for the stars......because you just might get what you wish for. And if you don't? Then come up with a new dream, a new reality. Nothing is impossible, even when all seems low....
I did. I am living my dream. My health, my family, my friends, are all part of the best dream. I still have a long way to go, more dreams to realize. I don't know what they all are going to be, but that's okay. I'll think of them along the way. I'll come up with new ones when I see something that I want, something I want to do. When I think of something that seems impossible? I won't, or at least, I'll try, not to negate it. Because there is NO way, almost 3 years ago, that I thought I could be a fitness instructor. NO WAY. It took time, little steps along the way, for me to begin to hope, begin to wish. It was terrifying.
Now? It's so much FUN. Sore muscles and all.......
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