I heard back yesterday from the Area Group X Manager for 24 hour fitness and well, I have an audition set up for Tuesday or Wednesday. As soon as I read the email from her, I had another freak out moment. My heart started racing, my stomach felt queasy, and I started shaking. THAT'S TOO SOON!!! Jessica was with me at my mom's and of course she is telling me I can do it but do I believe her at that exact moment? No, typical me has the freak out moment.
Got home and let Alex know. We had already planned to get together next week so he could help me practice but this just stepped it up a bit. He told me to stop whining (which I did, after a few hours) and get to learning ALL 10 freaking tracks because I have to be prepared to do all of them for her, and not just count on presenting a few. He gave me a deadline of tonight (a mere 24 hours since yesterday) to get on them. HELLOOO??? This is easy for these guys - not so for me but again, I work best under pressure, as much as I hate to admit it, so off I go.
I slept with the chorey notes under my pillow last night and I swear it helped - I woke up at 6:00 am on a Saturday, the first day of my vacation, laid in bed and turned on the music and had 2 more tracks down. I am now a firm believer in osmosis. It worked during the training module and it worked last night. The chorey just melted into my brain.......hahaha.
My Alex had a tournament game in Concord today but since he sprained his ankle in yesterday's game, he wasn't going to play so Cassie and I stayed home and I practiced. And practiced. And practiced some more. I am actually sore right now, even without using weights. Those tricep dips and pushups are doing me in and I know I will pay for it tomorrow. Did the dips on the coffee table (thanks Pam) and it just cracks me up that Alex saw me doing them and when he went to do some himself, I made him stop, put on track 5, and did them next to him while I coached him. He only could do the dips and pooped out for the rest of the track, hee hee. Mom kicked his butt!!
I am still struggling with a couple of tracks, shoulders and abs, and have to nail the warm up and cool down, but that's my plan this evening in between watching The Grinch Who Stole Christmas, which Alex is watching with Cassie cuddled up next to him. I just had to stop and blog because I have been thinking alot today. Shocker.
Excited to go see Alex tomorrow in SF and get some practice time in with him. It's going to be strange having him watch me and listen to me cue - I hope I get over the nervousness quickly because I need to perfect this as much as I can in a couple of hours and feel ready for my audition this week. I am SO very thankful he is taking the time to do this with me. I am very fortunate to have a friend like him. And it's so serendipitous that he was my first instructor, and now he is helping me become one. Whether he likes it or not :-)
I went with my friend Sandie for coffee today after I cajoled her into driving me to pick up my mother from a hair appointment since I had no car with the guys gone at soccer. I was telling her that I watched the Secret again today, and I am still amazed at how, since trying to live my life differently, asking for what I want and visualizing myself living the life I want to lead, how things have accelerated so quickly. It really makes a difference to not only ask for what you want, believe that you deserve it, picture yourself as if you already have it, and FEEL like you already have achieved it.
Especially this Les Mills journey. I look back to June, when I found out that the classes were going away and how devastated I felt, how lost, how scared. How people would look at me like I was nuts for being so attached to this "program" and telling me that it wasn't the classes, it was ME that did the hard work. And it's true, I did do the work but no one understood how important the program WAS to me and how it made me feel to lose it. I cried, I sobbed, at the thought of it going away and people thought I was crazy for being so distraught. I remember thinking that I wish I could become an instructor so I would never lose it. I also remember thinking, "no way could I do it but WHAT IF?" It was only because I began to train for the marathon that my focus shifted or who knows if I would have ended up in a gutter because I was so distraught!
Then fast forward to October, after the marathon, joining 24 Hour Fitness to follow Les Mills and Body Pump, and having the thought that "I would love to become an instructor, but I am not ready." I remember going to SF with Beki to take Alex's classes in late October and voicing to her how I wish I could go through the training. Then like lighting, the thoughts kept coming in my head, inundating my thoughts, asking my instructor friends their opinions, forming the possibility of actually doing it. Sending off the email to 24 for sponsorship, applying and getting approved from LM and now, a MERE 7 weeks later, about to have an audition to become an instructor. It boggles my mind, when I take the time to really think about it, how RAPIDLY this all came about. It all stemmed from a thought, a little pinch in my brain, about the possibility of actually doing this. Paying it forward to people who are beginning their journey like I was when I walked into Alex's class in March 2008. How FREAKING EXCITING IS THIS?
Now I have what I wanted. Les Mills in my life. It hasn't gone away. It's here to stay because my passion, the class that started it all for me on this road to becoming fit and healthy, the enormous amount of FUN I am having (yes I am having fun even if I freak out constantly). I don't have to say goodbye to it anymore. I get to remain friends with the people who inspired me. I get to meet more fitness minded people who love this program as much or more than I do. I get to hopefully inspire others. I get to exercise. I get to be "in on it". I am part of a tribe.
God, it was just a few short months ago that I was just a participant. It is so hard, this learning of the choreography and practicing even when your muscles are sore, and listening to the music constantly. I never knew how much went into it. Am I complaining? No, I LOVE IT. Yes, I am stressed. But I think it's a good stress, if there is such a thing.
Oh, and HOW is it that I can listen to these tracks multiple times a day, every day, at home, in the car, sing along, count, move, sing, count, move, and I am still not sick of them? How is that possible? I don't get that one. Maybe this one release will always have a special place in my heart because it's my first. Do you ever get sick of it? Even songs that I wasn't crazy about in the beginning have grown on me and I am not tired of any of them. Hmmmm. Weird. And I just can't wait to teach this release in front of a room full of people!~ Someone should remind me, the night before I actually teach my first class, as I am having my freak out moment, that I wrote this. Cause you all know I will be freaking out. But right now, at this moment, I can't think of anything more exciting than teaching it.
I am just picturing myself getting hired on the spot and being a part of the BP76 launch on January 8. I am imagining myself on the schedule, one or two regular classes a week, like Sunday and Wednesday, or Monday and Wednesday. I am visualizing microphones that work, a packed class, people having a good time, grunting and moaning and whooping. And thanking me when it is all over for a great workout.
Christmas? Shopping? Who has time now? I gotta nail this! I guess on Wednesday night, after this audition is over, I will then finally begin to focus on whatever shopping I have to do. I am finding it hard to get motivated to buy presents for kids who don't need anything, when I am so thankful for my husband, my children, my family and friends, my health and my body, to have love and joy and be surrounded by awesome people......just can't see the importance of buying presents just because it's what we "do". My gift has already been given to me. The gift of health and of life and love. By so many. You all know who you are. From my blood family, to my extended family, and my childhood friends to my new friends, I love you all. **Sniff sniff.**
I posted this quote today. "Whether you think you can or you can't; either way, you are right" ` Henry Ford.
I was corrected today by Jozi when I said I think I can - I KNOW I CAN!!!!
Here I come!!!!
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