Today was such a great day. I slept in for the first time in weeks on a Sunday, skipped Amy's early morning BP class since I was going to spend time in SF practicing with Alex and taking his class. Practiced and scripted cues in the morning, spent time with the family, then during a surprisingly dry drive, went to SF to meet Alex at Golds.
Talk about being nervous. I know I didn't need to be, it's not like I was up on a stage or something. But it is an odd sensation to be looked at so closely by someone you have an enormous amount of respect and admiration for, and I was really embarrassed at first. It got easier, but I was fully expecting (I don't know WHY) that Alex would be in workout clothes, holding a bar and doing it with me. Uh, NO. He showed up in jeans and proceeded to stand there and direct, critique, push, cajole, tease, push, and laugh at me! All in good fun, of course. It was just so unnerving being watched that closely, but it was SO great to have honest, immediate feedback. I was not uneasy about my form and technique, it was the cueing and coaching that I had such a hard time getting to come out of my mouth! It felt strange to be cueing to someone who knows exactly what to do. I suppose it would be easier cueing to a roomful of people rather to one person staring at you......which means how am I going to handle this audition if it is just me, pretending to teach a class, to one woman watching and critiquing me? I would imagine a bit easier, since I don't know her, she doesn't know me, I can be nervous and act like I am not, where with Alex, I am not that good of an actress.
We spent so much time - or rather, he spent so much time having me go over and over things that we only got through 5 out of 10 tracks and so while I feel better than before, I am still nervous about the rest of the tracks. I wish we had more time before my audition to practice but I have to be a big girl and suck it up and get to it and get it done. I need to work tomorrow on tracks 8-9-10 and really nailing track 1 (in between taking Cassie and Jasmine to the movies to see Yogi Bear - too bad I can't get out of THAT one) going to the dentist, doing the whole class to my niece (she is very agreeable to being my guinea pig) and taking mom to the doctor in the evening.......and I haven't even thought about Christmas. Sigh.
After we practiced it was time for Alex to teach his BP class. I remember my very first class with him, and how confused and intimated I felt, and compared it to tonight - how sure, how strong, how fit I felt - and I felt great. Being part of the group, knowing the ins and outs so to speak, knowing that I was not just a participant any longer, being able to be a part of the class, yet know the WHYS and the HOWS of what he was doing as an instructor, it just felt so AWESOME. I truly enjoy taking the class as a participant, but I can't wait to lead the class.
Goodness. It's 1:30 am, I can hardly keep my eyes open and I have an early dentist appointment. I suppose if I forgot anything, there is always tomorrow.
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