U-G-H

When does it get better? Easier? Smoother?

Tonight I was not nervous at all. I was looking so forward to class because I had had a great day planning, VERY productive grade level planning day, then spent a very stressful afternoon preparing for yet another classroom observation at 8:25 tomorrow morning. This left very little time to plan, and I didn't leave school until 5:50 - almost dark and I absolutely loathe staying that late. Went straight to the gym.

I went in early but instructed the class not to enter until the previous class was over. I pulled together all my weights, had a chance to go back out and talk to some new members who had questions, felt really ready and good to go.

Oh, and as I am setting up, I hear a little voice excitedly say, "Hi Mrs. Herrera!!!!" and look up to see one of my students in the middle of the gym. WTF? I look over and her parents are waving and smiling at me from the door. I wave them in to join the class and they smiled and said next time. So now my image as a professional kindergarten teacher has been forever shattered. They have seen me in tight workout pants and a halter top. Lovely. Can't wait to see what the dad says to me tomorrow!

Begin the class at 6:35. So here I am, doing the warm up, feeling good. Go to track 2, demonstrate good range of motion, started the music and put the bar on my upper back. Begin teaching, moving, thinking, wondering......why does it feel WRONG? Why are my counts seemingly OFF? What is going on? What the..........what........wha....................OH NO.......

OMG I was playing TRACK 4 - the BACK TRACK!!! And doing SQUATS!!!!!! No WONDER it felt wrong! HELLLLLLOOOOOO???? Why did no one catch this? ME??? At least the regulars? Eye contact, something to let me know I was WAY OFF?

Well, it's all about recovery. Only thing to do, in this instance, was S-T-O-P and start over again. Which I had to do. I want to completely disable shuffle. Didn't I learn my lesson last week? I didn't realize I hit it again. So the poor class had to start squats all over again. I'm sure they all hate me now.

Totally embarrassed. Made a joke of it, laughed it off, sure that everyone in the room was thinking, "What a complete idiot!" I didn't advertise that I am a new instructor, but after this? They ALL KNOW. Trust me.

Good grief. When will I have a perfect class? I need to in order to begin taping myself. I cannot submit something so ridiculous as what I did tonight. I realize this was only my 4th class. But to me, 4 times? I should be better at this by now.

And after that great email from my AGXM yesterday. What a bomb.

Then the stupid mic in this gym has so many dead spots in the front of the room. Just finding a spot that works only works for a short time and then you have to move again. Frustrating.

I had to cut lunges because last week I forgot shoulders........but finished the cool down and clean up and was out at 7:32. I just need a mere 5 additional minutes and I will have a complete class. Sent a suggestion to my AGXM tonight on how to accomplish this. Fingers crossed.

At least I didn't cry after class. I did laugh. As I was talking to Steph in the parking lot, my right index finger started seriously throbbing. Don't know what I did to it but in the shower, noticed a HUGE purple bruise running alongside it. I burst a blood vessel somehow. Hazards of BodyPump.

That, and the brain cells that are obviously dwindling faster than I can count.................