Da Bomb. I mean, I bombed. Okay, I didn't BOMB. But it sure felt like it for two hours after my very first solo BodyPump class.
Now I am a Drama Queen. No secret. But really, I have such high expectations of myself going into teaching this class, and I KNOW I need to give myself a break. However, it is entirely the fault of my previous fabulous instructors. They are the ones I hold myself up to. Who I aspire to be like. Like THAT will ever happen.
I was not nervous. At all. I was just excited. Until about 5:00 pm. Jessica drove me to the gym and we took both girls because they wanted to play in the KidsCare. Fine. So we check them in, get them settled, and had over an hour to either do cardio, or instead, talk to the manager about a couple of new developments coming up in the next couple of weeks. Jess also got them them, willingly, to open up the hand weights for people to use during triceps and shoulders.
I worked myself up into dry mouth, even though I had been slamming water all day. Still fighting a cold that I refuse to give in to. I had a headache. I had stomach flip flops. Spoke to Andre, the hip hop teacher before me and confirmed that he doesn't mind if we go in the last 10 minutes of class and pull equipment to the back and sides of the room to save us set up time. It would really be nice, though, if people would RESPECT the other class and not set up in the middle!! I had to run around and get people to move their stuff to the back since class was still going on! At this rate, I won't let them in until 6:30.
So I am running back and forth, getting set up with Stephanie's help (now I am happy that at times, I would set up Alex and Kimi's weights because they were busy plugging in music, getting ready.....it's a lot to do in a few minutes! Andre was talking to me, he doesn't use the mic so I am getting that ready, no belt pack so Steph ran to the front to get it for me. Then I couldn't figure out what was up or down getting that stupid thing on and I had already worn it twice! Sigh. Set up my iPhone (with the Airplane setting on, Alex!) and we were on our way.
Introduced myself to the class, told them I was the new Thursday instructor (didn't mention I was NEW) and announced the new Sunday class (because I knew if I waited till the end of class, most may be gone already). Forgot my class intro "BodyPump is the Original Barbell workout that strengthens and tones every muscle group in your body" blah blah blah.
Start the warm up, nailed it. Connected with the room, there were 30+ people, lots of Hoover people which was so exciting, as well as most of the regular pumpers. Moved into squats, nailed that one. But a funny thing kept happening as I went to start the music for each track. When I went to pause after the warm up, my phone had locked so I double clicked to see the music menu, and a different song was cued up next. So I had to unlock, go into the playlist menu, and get to the next track. This kept happening. I know I wasted time messing with the stupid playlist. Everytime I went to start the next track after I demonstrated the key moves, it was not on the song that was supposed to be next. DROVE ME NUTS. I will have to bring Franklin's iTouch next time cause I can't deal with it. May as well just sprint to the stereo and have the CD playing at this rate.
Triceps were fun. I loved seeing the looks of pain literally across the room. I'm sure I had the same look but I tried REALLY hard tonight to smile through my pain. Biceps - fun. Lunges - NOT. But I finished even though I swear my legs were a freaking jello mold as I wobbled to my phone to pause.
I was VERY conscious of the time. Zumba is right after and there are always like 70 people in line. I spoke to Justin beforehand and he told me as long as we were not actually doing a track at 7:30, not to worry and just make sure we are cleaning up by then. But the pressure of getting all the tracks in, coupled with the clock ticking.....I just couldn't relax and get past the fact that I was running out of time. I tried not to talk too much in between but I swear it was the damn phone that added more time.
I hate to admit it, but I had to cut abs and go straight to cool down. I had mentioned at some point in the class that I really felt strongly about the class finishing the warm up and if they could please not clean up during abs or cool down to respect those who were there for a complete workout. Happy to say that only 2-3 people cleaned up early - I had almost a whole class on the floor stretching. Felt really good to see that.
Thanked everyone, started cleaning up..........and it hit me. I couldn't believe what I had done.
I COMPLETELY FORGOT SHOULDERS.
WTH?????? I LOVE THIS SHOULDER TRACK. I didn't even REALIZE I forgot it till class was over. OMG. Now, the newbies, they didn't even realize. The regulars, sure they did. I was MORTIFIED. I knew I had to cut abs. But to completely forget an entire track? STUPID phone and the mix up in the songs. I didn't even realize. And because Jessica keeps telling me if I am going to cut a track, make it lunges, I think I will keep lunges in just for her......hahaha!
Franklin and Alexander came to pick me up and Alex came in the room and was talking to Kristin, and when I told him the phone was acting crazy he asked, "Do you have it on shuffle?" Of course I didn't! I know better! Well, lo and behold.......I looked at the playlist and the damn thing was on shuffle. No WONDER my playlist was all out of order. CRAP!! How did I not notice that? Now I feel like a complete idiot. How does one FORGET a track?
We ended up going to Pasta Pomodoro for a Woodside soccer fundraiser where I had an awesome salmon salad but I kept kicking myself the whole way there, and sitting at the table waiting to order I couldn't help but let the tears flow. It didn't help that Alex was giving me grief for even being upset, I just wanted to smack him.
The thing is, Stephanie, Carolina, Jessica, and others told me how much smoother it was than the weekend. I received a text from Janet, her second class, telling me how much fun it was. How much better it was than Tuesday. Not to worry about it. But I KNOW. I simply cannot believe that I forgot a track and cut another. Two tracks? It is so unacceptable in my book.
I'll get over it I suppose. But for my first class ever, I wanted it to be damn near perfect. Or at least complete. Now the family joke is this: "Oh, so and so said on FB that she is better than you cause she NEVER forgets tracks!" Or "Hear that song? Is that the shoulder track song?" I live with a couple of freaking comedians. I guess I deserve it, though. I know I shouldn't let it get to me so much.
But again, I come from a participant background where even though the instructors I've had have made mistakes, they were minor. They have never cut tracks. They have not forgotten tracks. At least I never noticed. I did mess up chorey a couple of times, and was flustered enough to cop to it and let it show.
At least the things that I screwed up on are redeemable. On Sunday, I will not have a class after me so I can start on time, time myself and get all the tracks in and not worry about a class after me. I mean, I am not going to take my time and increase the class by a lot, I just won't have the pressure of a class waiting so I can see exactly how long I really take. When I video tape, I will make sure to do it on a Sunday so I don't have to rush out. I will make sure my playlist is NOT on shuffle. Good grief that was stupid. I will make sure to take the lock off my phone or just use the iTouch and not worry about it.
My first class. Done. Part of my history. Thank goodness. I wanted so badly to cherish it, enjoy it, remember it. Well, I did enjoy.........cherish? Hmmm. Remember it? Will never forget it :-)
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