What a Friday!

I was made to promise I would post a "retraction" of sorts to last night's blog. I literally posted it and then 10 minutes later got a phone call from a certain someone yelling at me for obsessing about my weight! I've been told, and I KNOW this, that muscle weighs more than fat, and I need to throw away my scale, I need to look at how I feel and how my clothes fit, etc., blah blah blah. I know I have a problem. However, it's been a long while since I weighed and it was not an obsessive kind of weigh in, it was a very calm check in kind of weigh in. I was HAPPY at what I found! Usually it goes the other way and I am pissed at the lack of downward movement.

I will admit, that even though the scale moved down, I start reflecting on the big picture - how little I've lost since last year. There was a time when I was losing so rapidly, and consistently, that one can't help wonder why I've slowed down. I realize it's a lot of factors, including my diet, my overall workout plan, my slower metabolism, and so on. But as I said yesterday, I'm feeling a newfound focus and hopefully things will start to move.

If I do weigh again, I will try to remember not to post here. To avoid getting slapped on the hand ;-P

I just read one of Pam's blogs and she had a link to a blog that showed woman at the beginning of her journey, and one after - and she weighed the EXACT SAME WEIGHT IN EACH PICTURE. Kinda blew me away. I do get it, and I have said this before, but when you have been overweight your entire life, the obsession with the scale and weight is a hard one to overcome. Amanda and I were driving to pick up our race day packets today and I told her the other day I was walking after my class, still in my workout clothes and I happened to walk by a store window, looked at my profile (cause who doesn't look at themselves) and thought "she looks fit, she looks good" or something like that and it took me a second to realize I was looking at ME. It took me aback, and at the next pane of glass I had to look close before it sunk in that it was me. She laughed at me, but it still takes me by surprise. I am not skinny. I most likely will never be. But I'm skinny for me. Skinnier. My mind, however, is still a bit overweight.

I received my AFAA study materials today. I just have two words. Oh CRAP.

Tomorrow is kind of a big day. I will do my first 5k with my daughter. She and her 5 year old cousin Jasmine are doing it together with my niece Amanda. I'm excited to show Cassie that fitness can be fun, we can do it as a family, we have some friends with kids walking also and she is excited to "race". We need to leave the house at 7:00am so that will be interesting, especially since I am not asleep yet.

The boys are still at the Woodside vs Sequioa football game. It was packed as I drove by. These two rivals have not played each other in about 25 yrs. Hope they're having fun but I'm crashing RIGHT NOW.

Gotta rest up for OktobeRun :-)