All alone

It's a girls weekend.

The boys are off with the team for the big tournament in Fresno...just dropped them off at the field and saw the caravan off. Had to explain over and over to all my other sons why I wasn't going, since I always do, and it was pretty funny to see their reactions when they heard that I was running 13 miles next week. They all said there was no way they could do that! They even started piling in my van until I stopped them and told them I wasn't going. I felt a bit sad and guilty because I rarely miss a tournament, but I've been to this one in Fresno. I declared last September as we sweltered in 108 degree temps on a SMELLY fairground that I would NOT be going if they ever had a tournament again in that stinky town. It just so happens that it falls on the last weekend before the event. So I had a good excuse not to go, can't and won't miss my last long(ish) training run.

There is always that feeling that I will miss something really good, and with Alexander playing more now since recovering from his injury, I miss watching him on the field. Yes, there will be others, but it seems like whenever I am not at a game, he does some amazing plays that just don't sound as good when you are describing them after the fact. Sigh. I also worry about them driving so far. Me the worrywart. I just send them off with good thoughts and prayers and make them call me when they arrive, which means I won't be able to sleep till after midnight tonight.

Then there is the prospect of not having anything to do this weekend. Yes, I have Cassie to hang with. And we are meeting my friend Jen and her daughter Jordan for coffee tomorrow morning, which will be really nice, and a birthday party that Cassie doesn't want to go to, and my run on Sunday, but other than that, again, it's just me and Cass. Gets kinda old, them being gone at soccer so much. I know I need to keep resting because I am still not feeling great, definitely better, but still coughing. I did tell Cassie I would take her to the movies, and to the park. I am so used to being overscheduled that not having lots of plans is hard for me to adjust to.

Franklin asked that if they made it to the finals Sunday at 3:30 would I drive out. Hmmm......run in the morning, then drive 3+ hours by myself, stay for the game, then drive 3+hours back, getting home at probably 9-10 pm or later on a school night. No. It would make me sick to my stomach to miss Alex playing in a championship game, and last year, we did win first place, but I don't think I can do it. With recovering from being sick, then a run, and needing to rest and ice after, I just don't think I am up for it. And so comes more guilt. Sigh.

The bright spot for the weekend is I have decided to GO BUY MY IPHONE!!!!YES!!!! I am not waiting till February, and yes, it will cost me double, but I planned for this purchase with my car accident settlement, and I have the $$ now. I may not have it in Feb to spend, so I am going to go for it. Now I have to decide do I do it through the ATT store or through the Apple store. Decisions, decisions. Reminds me of when both Franklin and Alex left for a week to Washington DC after 8th grade graduation, and I went and bought my Blackberry. Soooo......they boys leave me alone, and to cope, I go new phone shopping. I sense a pattern here :)

Oh, and imagine my surprise when I stepped on the scale this morning to find I am down 5 pounds. After commenting that I haven't lost anything since I started running. Hmmm. This week, other than being sick and staying home for 2 days, the only difference I can think of  is the butt load of water and tea I have been drinking. I have known that I my water intake hasn't been great, so I have made a conscious effort lately to drink more. So that must be it. Cool.

So wiped out now. I want to go to bed but want to wait to make sure the guys make it to Fresno okay, so I can sleep in peace. Oh, Cassie just made me go to the bathroom with her to watch her put on lipstick. Great. Not even 5 and now I have to worry about makeup. She looks like a clown, got it all over her mouth. Good thing it's a lip shimmer, not a dark color. My little diva. Sigh.

It's gonna be a long weekend.