*Sigh.* Change. I have never been one to shy away from changes. Sure I may bitch and complain at times, but I have always embraced it because it means I am growing. It is too easy to get comfortable and stay stagnant. With all the changes that have been going on in my life and my body the last 6 months, I would be a hypocrite to say I don't like change.
But this week threw me for a loop. On Tuesday we walked into the gym and saw that there was something happening outside of Gold's. Alex then informed us before class that Crunch had bought out both the Redwood City and San Mateo locations, and that the future of our beloved Les Mills classes were unknown. Well, that just freaked me out because while I love change, I embrace change, I don't want these classes to CHANGE!! They are what changed me and my body! What will I do without them? I don't like to do machines anymore. They bore me. I don't like other instructors - they aren't as intense or as great. It weighed on my mind all during the next two hours. It was all over Facebook. It was the subject between us regulars at Willi's classes on Thursday. I know there is nothing we can do to change the direction this new gym may take, but what about us and our needs??!! Carolina suggested we write a letter to the gym, a petition with signatures, and say that if they get rid of our classes, we will all defect. I am not sure if we should jump the gun before we know what they are really going to do, or if we should do something like that in anticipation of change, to help sway them. I don't know.
All I know is I am a FIRM believer in that everything happens for a reason. When one door closes, another opens. It is not WHAT happens to us, but how we HANDLE what happens to us. So I sit and ponder right now, and will try out some other classes just to see if I find something I love. I seriously doubt any class I could take right now will come close to how much I love my Les Mills classes. But what am I to do if they go away? I can follow them to another gym, up to a point. Bladium in Alameda offers a ton of them, but it's too damn far to go to as regularly as I go now. Maybe I could swing once a week but that won't be enough for me. There is talk that 24 fitness will bring in those classes. But will our instructors go there? It's almost not enough for just the classes to be offered; Alex, Kimi and Willi are a package deal for me and so many others. I am going to go to Alameda on Sunday to try Body Attack with Alex. I took it a few months ago in Roseville and am curious, now that I am a bit more fit, to see how well I keep up with my endurance.
In terms of my progress, I weighed in yesterday for the first time in awhile and have finally moved down a bit. I am out of the 170's!! YAY! Then the scale went right back under the bed. No obsessing for me. It feels good to look at it as just a number, and not an obsession. My size 12's are awesome. I have spent a lot of time with my nieceAmanda this week, and she is amazed at how much I have changed. She even took me running a couple of days ago. Kept encouraging me, not pushing too hard but not letting me give up. I could almost like running outdoors if I had someone to do it with who would push me. Not sure if my knees could handle it, but it felt good.
I was giving Franklin a hug the other day and felt something uncomfortable under my chest. When I pulled back to see what was up, I realized I was pressing on my RIBS!!! OMG I have never even felt my ribs and to feel them as I was hugging, I actually started laughing! What a weird sensation. I also find myself running my hands up and down my torso a few times a day, because I am amazed at the lack of rolls on my midsection. I know that ifif I just toned up, I would be much happier. I don't care if I lose 10 or 20 more pounds. I don't even know how much more I need to lose, just that I am not at my goal yet. But if I could tone and get rid of the excess that is hiding my muscles, I would be happy. Alexander is worried that I will lose more weight, and doesn't want me to get any skinnier. He has no concept of how much I should weigh, but it is funny that he is so adamant about me staying like I am. I think it's because he has, his entire life, had a fat mom. He doesn't know what to make of me as a fit mom. He is afraid I will become "too" skinny, but I actually am not worried about that at all. I will always be hippy and I prefer that. I am toning, firming and I don't think I will ever be too skinny, but I am not where I want to be yet. And I am not in any kind of rush, either. Summer is here and I am perfectly happy to spend it at the size I am, because I know I will be working hard this summer to continue to get fit.
I bought my first pair of jean shorts EVER today!! Another clothing first. Love it.
Sigh. I can't help thinking if my workouts will be changing. Again, I embrace change but I am so hooked on my two favorite classes, and I know that I have to change things up to continue to change my body. So I added a couple of extra days of cardio. I will be doing Body Flow with Kimi in the next few weeks, after I finish summer school. But I don't want to give up my two, Combat and Pump. This new gym has online a HUGE list of classes they offer at their various facilities. Some sound really interesting, like Pole Dancing (hahaha) and a Balance Beam workout (low on the floor). It may not be a bad thing to see which classes they bring here and if I like any of them. I just don't want to give up LM classes. This is on my mind constantly these days.
*Boo hoo.* *Sob.* *Sigh.* *Sniff.*
Change is good. I know it is. But what about when the thing that changed your life for the better is the thing that may change? How can that be good? :(
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