What a short summer. Poof! Gone just like that. And now, I'm faced with a new school year, while in itself could be exciting, but for many teachers, it's just plain stressful.
Not to mention I'm sending my baby, my last born, my darling girl, off to first grade. FIRST GRADE? When in the world did that happen? She was just a baby not too long ago. Now she's grown a couple of inches, grown a ton of attitude, and struts around like a preteen instead of an almost 6 year old.
Now there are definitely perks to working as a teacher in the same school district as your children. Same vacations, knowing the teachers and requesting the best ones, etc. The downfall? not being able to take them to school on the first day because you have to be at school for your own class. Not going to parties or special events for the same reason. I'm trying to figure out a way that I can see her off to here first day in what promises to be a very challenging academic year for her. Kindergarten and first grade are vastly different and my heart aches for here, although I am more than confident that she will handle it brilliantly, as she is a smart little cookie. Just knowing how much harder this year will be makes me sad.
But I digress. This summer was way too short. I didn't do all I wanted, but I did do some. Lost an uncle, a close friend, and grieved. Never got to the pool or the beach. Only went to one movie. Slept. Worked out. Saw some friends, not enough, though. Went to a ton of soccer tournaments.
Thursday my first born begins his junior year. Again, I have to ask when did that happen? He's junior class president. In the Leadership class. It's going to be a big year for him, academically, socially, and just in general. He is growing. Fast. Becoming a man. Looking towards the future. It warms my heart to see how he is maturing, and makes me sad at the same time. I had him all to myself for 11 years. Once he is off to college in two years, it'll just be Cassie. Then I'll have her to watch grow and blossom. I think that's why I got pregnant with her after trying for 6 years. Because I would have been devastated after Alex leaves me, and this way, I have another child to keep raising after he is gone, even though I'll be an old lady by the time she graduates from high school!
I'm not relishing the whole back to school thing just because even though we will be back on a schedule, the evening routine of making dinners, lunches, teaching BP, homework, dishes, laundry, blah blah blah is not fun for me. I need to be more creative at how to manage it all because today was a slap in the face reminder of how busy I am going to be. And while I am not Suzy Homemaker, I strive to be and maybe that's my problem. I need to find a way to manage my time better, to delegate and make the men in my household take some of the slack. Otherwise it's going to be a tough year.
All in all, I am looking forward to seeing both my children grow, seeing where my own journey continues to take me.
Now off to bed and up, up and away bright and early tomorrow!
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